Parents' Hearts

Today, both boy boy and his parents learnt valuable lessons through a heart-wrenching session of bottle feeding. Well, we trying to teach boy boy to drink from the bottle as Mummy's maternity leave is ending soon and boy boy will have to feed from the bottle daily then.
So... we started feeding him from the bottle this evening and he was really really upset, crying and struggling all the way, even to the point when he was really tired out. He was so tired yet so upset that he was just going 'Uh! Uh! Hur..... Uh! Uh! Hur....' with tears streaming down his side. All the more because he was in a familiar environment (in our room) and hearing mummy's voice once in a while (I was the one feeding him), so he may have felt sort of abandoned by Mummy... 'why does mummy not want to feed me?'. It was a heart wrenching sight, seeing him so worn out, yet hungry, with tears streaming and trying to communicate somehow with his 'uh's and 'hur's. So heart wrenching that Daddy also teared.
They always say you can learn much more of God's heart by being a parent, and I can see the truth in that. Boy boy might have been feeling abandoned and not understood why even though Mummy could have fed him, but didn't. It's like us not knowing why we have to go through certain episodes in our lives, may it be trials, may it be suffering, and yet all this while knowing that God could certainly do something about it but didn't. How God must have felt while we were suffering, complaining, even ranting and cursing, with tears streaming down our faces daily, but chose not to intervene for He knows why we have to go through it, and how it is for the good of us. How heart-wrenching it is for Him.
But now boy boy knows that milk flows from the bottle too, and Mummy has not abandoned him (because Mummy came quickly to hug him and hold him close for a long long while after his feed). His smiles are back and lessons are well-learnt.