The Mummy speaks

Motherhood and maternal instincts. I think this is really something that is God given. It has been 7 and a half months since I officially took on role of being Caleb's mummy. (wow.. time really flies!) And I must say that being Caleb's mummy has been the most fulfilling role I've ever taken on. (I believe I feel this way because of the maternal instincts that God gives all mummies. He gives us the extra love that we never knew we could give and the extra endurance to meet all the needs of our baby because we love him.)
Being a mummy has given me greater insights into God's love for us. Of course, we all know that God loves us and only has the best for us but a lot of times, it is very easy to forget about God's love and His plans for us coz we tend to be inward looking and do things according to our own needs, emotions and desires.
As Caleb's mummy, I love him very much and want the best for him. I want to be there for him, to watch over him, protect him and nurture him. Of course many times Caleb does not know that because he is still very young and at this age, he only focuses on things that catches his attention and for that short moment, the only thing that runs in his head is that he is going to get what he wants.
In the last two weeks, Caleb has started to be able to reach out for things and use them to aid him in standing up on his crib. And once he stands up, he trys to tilt his body over so that he can reach out for things outside of his crib. Of course, with my new found mummy instincts, the minute that my son is awake, my mummy instincts would wake me up too to keep an eye on him. (Trust me, the Gen before Caleb's time sleeps like a log and nothing can wake me up... but now, I would classify myself as a light sleeper :)) Anyhow, the minute that I see Caleb tilting over, I'll just pull him back so that he cannot go forward any further, if not he is going to fall off the bed. Sometimes he gets upset with me coz he cannot understand why I'm restraining him and even though I try to explain to him that he will fall off the bed if I let go of him, I half suspect he is not hearing me coz he is just determined to get what he wants.
And it has occurred to me that this is very similar to us in our daily lives as well. Sometimes we just want to do things our way and get what we want but it may not be the best for us. And God our Father knows what is good and not good for us and so, sometimes, He may not give us what we want or ask for. He may be telling us so but like little Caleb, we may be shutting our ears out to Him coz we are focusing on our own wants and desires and emotions.
It is my prayer that I will be able to teach Caleb about our Father's love and help Him to understand that God's ways are higher than our ways, and His thoughts are higher than our thoughts. And one day, Caleb will come to understand that what I do for him is simply because I love him.